die

if you love something give it away.

Aaah

Currently have the greatest urge to annihilate the general population.



MOTHER FUCKER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Recap

My film teacher totally enjoyed my gypsy room. His exact words were, 'Hmm, it's definitely better than i'd expected.' I think it'll teach him to not underestimate the lengths i will go to to prove someone wrong haha.

In other news, i've decided to become a contortionist. I've been doing some training exercises for the past few days to increase my flexibility so hopefully that'll work out well!!! Oh and also, i start my media coursework soon... which is the production of a front cover and contents page of a men's fashion magazine - SO BASICALLY IF YOU THINK YOU'RE GOOD ENOUGH CONTACT ME.

Gypsy Result

Ok so this is totally what i managed to get done within a night's worth of hard labour.



I don't think it's too bad for a mock up set to be honest. I have more things to go on the walls, and need to get a few skeleton/beady things to make it seem a bit more spanishy... all seems a bit oldy oldy christian atm but we'll sort it!!!

My teacher still might say no he doesn't think it's right and i'll end up shooting in a forest or something crap like that, but oh well. Fingers crossed...

Aw guess what?

I'm gna start writing blogs again for lack of a better thing to do. Well, kinda.

Lots of things are happening atm and i enjoy it. Compared to the last 6 months of my life what's happened in the space of this month is probably equivalent to a lifetime...

Between now and friday morning i've got to somehow manage to construct a gypsy's den/house from scratch. Basically i have to produce a 25 shot sequence within a film that i've thought up myself. Obviously i chose to do mine about a girl who's possessed by a demon/devil and commits a series of sodomising murders and therefore seeks sanctuary in the clairvoyance of a gypsy. Yada yada yada... lolz

So my teacher was like - unless you show me a photograph of this room on friday, i'm not gna buy the fact you're going to go away and project your vision into this coursework. SO! I turned around and said challenge accepted obviously.

I just keep telling myself that if i don't succeed in convincing him that i can produce an adequate set then i'll be thrown into a pit of vipers and killed! So obviously i'm going to try and do everything i can to avoid this horrible end.

Wish me luck.

Peer Pressure.

Basically i'm writing this blog against my own free will, but here goes.

I'll talk about my recent obsession with Aleister Crowley.



I think this obsession is one of my better ones. It's opened my mind to religion - I've never really seen a point in it but after studying the laws of Thelema I can totally see a point in devoting time and energy to a wonderful way of thinking.

I hope i become a true occultist one day!

Hogra.

I have a genuine hatred for life and everyone who is living at the moment.

I feel as if i've been thrown into a barathrum and left to die. And nothing's improved with hindsight.

I have no more words to describe my life at the moment.

Poikilothermic.

i love this gurlll.

Pan to Artemis.

"Uncharmable charmer
Of Bacchus and Mars
In the sounding rebounding
Abyss of the stars!
O virgin in armour,
Thine arrows unsling
In the brilliant resilient
First rays of the spring!

By the force of the fashion
Of love, when I broke
Through the shroud, through the cloud,
Through the storm, through the smoke,
To the mountain of passion
Volcanic that woke ---
By the rage of the mage
I invoke, I invoke!

By the midnight of madness: -
The lone-lying sea,
The swoon of the moon,
Your swoon into me,
The sentinel sadness
Of cliff-clinging pine,
That night of delight
You were mine, you were mine!

You were mine, O my saint,
My maiden, my mate,
By the might of the right
Of the night of our fate.
Though I fall, though I faint,
Though I char, though I choke,
By the hour of our power
I invoke, I invoke!

By the mystical union
Of fairy and faun,
Unspoken, unbroken -
The dust to the dawn! -
A secret communion
Unmeasured, unsung,
The listless, resistless,
Tumultuous tongue! -

O virgin in armour,
Thine arrows unsling,
In the brilliant resilient
First rays of the spring!
No Godhead could charm her,
But manhood awoke -
O fiery Valkyrie,
I invoke, I invoke!"


by Aleister Crowley

Hyperhedonia.

Making some broccoli and leek soup.

I like eating extremely bland foods at the moment. My life lacks a certain lustre at the moment which it's had at some points in the past. So i feel it's only appropriate to eat food that adheres to this lifestyle.