Sceney4lyf.

Ma'i lele

Meaning infection, in Hawaiian.

A subject that's always going through my thoughts, infection, albeit of the mind.


Alex Rose

I for one was inspired by this picture. It brought me to think, that through infection, things can ultimately seem more beautiful. Whereby people become so deluded by their mental illness that their reality is distorted so much they enter a world of their own where everything is horrifyingly beautiful.


Joseph Dolan

Christmas.

Today was shit to be completely honest with you. I could go on about it for hours on end but, no. I'm so beyond that.

I've had an epiphany instead. I've realised that i don't have to stand for the shit i've put up with recently. I'm finally going to do something about it.

I've decided that i need a PEN so badly.


I've decided that i need to finally do something about losing weight, and i don't need a gym to do it. Me and Em need to become rawists. We need to eat beans, salad, and, bean salads! R U RAWWW?????

I've decided that i need to get a job. I'm not going to get anywhere complaining about not being given any money anymore when i could be out earning it myself.

I've decided that i definitely hate college. I'm not going back without a fight.

I've decided that this is where i need to draw a line.



That was then... This is now.

Best.

Recently... i've been thinking a lot about who my friends are.

Friends come and go as you may know.

The ones who stay in your life the longest though, are the ones you may consider to be your 'best' friends.

I sat for a good few minutes this morning just thinking about 'best' friends. Naturally, the best of something, will never be the best for long. There are always bigger and better things coming in the world. So for one, how do i expect myself to survive in a world where everything can only get better? When i've seen my own image deteriorate slowly over the past few months. More to the point, how can anyone come to expect their best friends, to remain best friends, or even just friends, for their entire lives?

I realise that not every friendship needs to end in flames, i'm just merely stating that we can't expect people to be there for us our entire lives.

A friend of mine once said to me that 'seeing your friends should be a pleasure'. By this she meant that we cannot rely on people to be there our entire lives, every second of the day. To see them once in a while should be enough, as we need to focus on the more important things in life. I for one know that i have not so much wasted time on people, but spent time i could have been doing something more appropriate by talking with someone on the phone for about an hour.

I think that after a while we become to familiar with our friends. We talk to them every day. See them every day, every weekend. But what happens when these people are no longer in our lives? Where do we turn then?

3.

I feel like i've lost my identity...

Not in a way that i don't know who i am.

I know who i am.

In a way that...

When i look in the mirror, i don't see myself.

Yep.

Felt obliged to write a blog since i've not done one in about a week or something, but tbh, i'm just starting off again so... ye.


Finished college the other day for christmas. I'm fuckin glad to have gotten out tbh.

I'm seriously considering just not going back at all. I think the best option for me atm is to look around for another college where i can get a similar course, or just something completely different... I don't really know. Maybe even get back to bolton?? :S

Well... desperate times call for desperate measures i suppose?

The comeback.

I'm back... No shit ye.

I'm coming to that stage in my life again where i need to tell everyone what's going on, and also to review things in my own head at the end of the day. It's all good!


Well, re-intro over... Made some sick ass glasses last night.
Not too bad for a first attempt i think. Had my hair cut as well a few days ago. Like it.

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I want the fame.