Hogra.

I have a genuine hatred for life and everyone who is living at the moment.

I feel as if i've been thrown into a barathrum and left to die. And nothing's improved with hindsight.

I have no more words to describe my life at the moment.

Poikilothermic.

i love this gurlll.

Pan to Artemis.

"Uncharmable charmer
Of Bacchus and Mars
In the sounding rebounding
Abyss of the stars!
O virgin in armour,
Thine arrows unsling
In the brilliant resilient
First rays of the spring!

By the force of the fashion
Of love, when I broke
Through the shroud, through the cloud,
Through the storm, through the smoke,
To the mountain of passion
Volcanic that woke ---
By the rage of the mage
I invoke, I invoke!

By the midnight of madness: -
The lone-lying sea,
The swoon of the moon,
Your swoon into me,
The sentinel sadness
Of cliff-clinging pine,
That night of delight
You were mine, you were mine!

You were mine, O my saint,
My maiden, my mate,
By the might of the right
Of the night of our fate.
Though I fall, though I faint,
Though I char, though I choke,
By the hour of our power
I invoke, I invoke!

By the mystical union
Of fairy and faun,
Unspoken, unbroken -
The dust to the dawn! -
A secret communion
Unmeasured, unsung,
The listless, resistless,
Tumultuous tongue! -

O virgin in armour,
Thine arrows unsling,
In the brilliant resilient
First rays of the spring!
No Godhead could charm her,
But manhood awoke -
O fiery Valkyrie,
I invoke, I invoke!"


by Aleister Crowley

Hyperhedonia.

Making some broccoli and leek soup.

I like eating extremely bland foods at the moment. My life lacks a certain lustre at the moment which it's had at some points in the past. So i feel it's only appropriate to eat food that adheres to this lifestyle.

Long Time.

Not done a blog in ages.

I got a job in the GAP. It's all pretty straight forward i just stand around for a while, smile at a few people, then go home. Something to pass the time anyways, and it's earning me a few quid to spend for myself without asking my parents which is quite cool.

I need to start learning how to drive like next week... I've left it like 5 months or something now and i really wanna start now like defo. Tired of walking, haha.

That's all i think. I'm boring at the moment sorry.

Ventripotent.

Seriously need to do something about my life at the moment.

I've stopped exercising and it's defo starting to take its toll on my body. It really hit me a few days ago when i got 2 spots on my chin and a cut on my lip. I felt tired, greasy and I just feel as if my body iss putrefying from the inside out.

So ye, i thought this blog needed to be written so i have it down as a mental note in black and white - that i need to start exercising again. Thankyou and goodnight.